Contemplating Hair Suicide

This is what My hair will look like soon:

 My growth is maybe one and a half inches longer than the woman's hair in the above picture.
I'm seriously thinking about chopping my locks off. I've been growing out my relaxer for the past seven months and I'm bored with it. I'm excited to be growing out my naturally curly hair again, but it's taking so long, and patience is a virtue that I definitely don't have much of. I've always had long hair--as a child, as a teen/adult with a relaxer, and now, as an adult sans relaxer. So it's kind of hard for me to chop my hair off, even though I really REALLLY want to.

This is my hair (relaxed):

I'm just really chicken...!!! For me, cutting it to a teeny weeny fro would mean chopping off about 11 inches of hair. And having hair that short would be a shock, especially since I wouldn't be able to put it in a ponytail on bad hair day! :)
But I'm really getting the urge to cut it! I planned on waiting til August of next year (2011) to cut my relaxer out, but at this point, I don't know if I'll have the patience to see it through. But if I do the big chop before next year, it's definitely going to be in the summertime because I don't need any icy cold winter wind blowing on my scalp! LOL

Peace, Love, and Chocolate,

Tonight is Rated R

This is a sexy outfit that I created---ideal for going out in.

Rated R by foreverIconic featuring Barbara Bui shoes

Items in this set:
Sequined silk mini dress, $695
Black Studded Biker Jacket by Richmond, 855 GBP
Barbara Bui Suede and python platform sandal T5237SC - Designer shoes..., 345 EUR
Horiyoshi The Third Skull ring, 620 GBP
Jadyn's Sterling Silver Snake Ring, $28

Valentino - Valentino V Absolu Eau De Parfum Spray 50ml/1.7oz $70

Amazon.com: Revlon Super Lustrous Lipstick $9.50

Dior 5-Colour Designer All-In-One Artistry Palette - Smoky Design $58

I love the glitter of the dress and the studs on the biker jacket and heels. I am definitely into studs. I think that  black automatically evokes an aura of mystery and sophistication, while wearing red lipstick gives you a little kick and pop of color. Amaaaazing!


Peace, Love, and Chocolate,

New York

I'm currently in NY for Spring Break, and I've committed to not doing any work. Hence the reason it's been a little more than a week since my last post. I'll have lots to blog about when I get back to school. I can say that New York is PRETTY FREAKING AWESOME!!!!


Peace, Love, and Chocolate,

My Teaching Practicum

Oh MY GOD!!! Today was amazing!

I taught my first lesson to a class of 7th graders, introducing drama. Now, this is a group of kids that I've only seen a handful of times, and they're usually non-participatory (think=>dead) in class. But these kids were as enthusiastic as I was, and they actually volunteered multiple times during the lesson.

I'm soooo happy because I was scared that I was going to go blank while teaching (Mind you, this is an 80 minute class period in which I'm stuck with twenty 12-year-olds). And I didn't fluster or choke!!!

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!

This is how I previously felt when I thought about teaching on my own with no experience (at first):

On top of my anxiety about teaching, I had a run-in with someone who shall remain unnamed (even though I should report this person). I was SO upset, and that situation only served to worsen my anxiety.

Then I thought about how capable I was and I started calming down. I looked at it this way:

...And this...

That's basically it. I feel like, if I can create my own lesson plan, create my own materials, handouts, and activities, and then teach for almost two whole hours UNASSISTED.... I can do pretty much anything!

BOOM!

(I'm on a fulfillment high!)

Who knew I could feel so rewarded after my first time? This is freakin' awesome!

Peace, Love, and Chocolate,

Food For Thought- On Hope

Hope is like a bird that senses the dawn and carefully starts to sing while it is still dark.
     - Anonymous

The definition of hope is "to wish for something with the expectation of it's fulfillment". With all of the things that go on in life, I think that it's important to stay hopeful about your situations. We have a very human tendency to want to wallow in our problems, be depressed about things that seem to always go wrong, and look at the glass half empty, rather than as half-full. 

Even so, having hope gives you the strength to keep on going, even when you want to give up. I, personally, had so many negative things going on in my life from Christmas 2009 up until the present. I won't get into specifics, but it dealt with the stress of college, financial issues, and relationships turning sour. For me, all of these things, among many other things, actually happened back-to-back (and I wish I was exaggerating, but sadly, I'm not).  I felt like I couldn't get a break-- I wanted to give up, and go bury my head under a rock for the next couple of months. 

My epiphany came when I realized that, no matter what, Life is going to happen. There are going to be good days and there are going to be bad days. And there are even going to be HELL days (which, I feel like I've been experiencing for the past few months lol). the point is that you can't let your situations, family, or friends dictate your happiness or mood. 


There will always be things beyond your control. My mom always tells me,

"Don't worry about the things you can't change. They already happened, and worrying isn't gonna make the situation different. The only thing that'll happen is that you'll make yourself miserable."

And...she's right.

I now strive to see the positive, beautiful things in my life. And I've realized thart hope is a very important factor in my life. I have goals and dreams, and I have hope and faith that they will happen.

Are you experiencing so many negative things, yet you're still being able to see the light at the end of the tunnel?

Well, that's hope!

Q: What is hope to you? Do you think it's valuable in helping you get through life?
Comment below! 

Peace, Love, and Chocolate,

Black Beauty

Beauty

I find, in being Black,
a thing of "Beauty";
like a joy; a strength;
a secret cup of gladness ...
a native land in neither time nor place ...
a native land in every Black face!

Be loyal to yourselves;
your skin;
your hair;
your lips;
your speech;
your laughing kinds
are Black kingdoms,
vast as any other.

-- Ossie Davis

This poem is awesome! It really speaks to black pride and having a positive attitude about your origins. So many black people that I know are ashamed of their race, or their hair. Yes, we've had our struggles and downfalls as a race, but just as we collectively went through tribulation, so are we rising collectively. 

Of course your race shouldn't be the end-all or say-all of who you are, but it is a very big part of you. 

So...

Be Bold.

Be Proud.

And...

Say it Loud: "I'm Black and I'm Proud!!"

Q: Why do you think that some black people tend to downplay or be ashamed of their race? 

Comment!

Peace, Love, and Chocolate,